Shantaram: A Modern Odyssey

If the evolution of a name could ever be compared to the tale of the man, then Gregory, Lindsay, Lin, Linbaba, and Shantaram was the most beautiful metamorphosis.

“It was as good a name as any, and no more or no less false than the dozen others I’d assumed since the escape. In fact, in recent months I’d found myself reacting with a quirky fatalism to the new names I was forced to adopt, in one place or another, and to the new names that others gave me. Lin. It was a diminutive I never could’ve invented for myself. But it sounded right, which is to say that I heard the voodoo echo of something ordained, fated:  a name that instantly belonged to me, as surely as the lost, secret name with which I was born, and under which I’d been sentenced to twenty years in prison.”

Shantaram is an epic, autobiographical tale about a man who escapes from prison and begins a new life as a fugitive in Bombay. It’s a tale of a man who is desperate to keep his freedom at all cost, while trying to maintain and dissect the balance of right and wrong, good and evil seemingly in an effort to redeem his previous crimes. To make a living, Lin finds himself quickly immersed in the black market of India, an economical force that’s in close quarters with the law and politics. His tale takes him from the role as a beloved slum doctor to the thug life of a mafia brother, a life that directly challenges our moral presumptions and criminal profiles. That life gives creed to “doing the wrong thing for the right reasons,” a sort of criminal validation. With his band of brothers he falsifies and delivers documents, exchanges currencies, and eventually transverses mountains to fight in Afghanistan’s holy war. Each action, even war, is broken down into its parts, with heinous acts always justified by a larger, often simple belief.

Lin inadvertently builds himself up as a sort of God, which is never more evident than when he denounces praise and thanks. Bullets and murderous rages are abound in his Odyssey yet Lin remains. He helps the poor and is willing to fight another’s war for simply the love of a man. Shantaram, Lin’s adopted name, translates to ‘man of God’s peace.’ It’s a classic tale of trying to be everybody’s savior, while trying to save yourself.

Shantaram also weaves a love story with the classic, frustratingly shifted timeline, each lover trading roles in their unrequited love. The hero and narrator, Lin, also seems most invincible yet is surrounded by drama, loss and death- a trait that statistically seems unlikely for a biographical work and would barely survive fiction. The characters are dynamic with one of the best pieces of humor being a hug-able bear. The story also seems to grant its viewers with an unstudied portrait of Australia’s and India’s incarceration system. Those condemned as criminals suddenly seem far more innocent than their treatment by the wardens. Roberts creates an unexpected and sympathetic urge to free them all-to cheer on those who would be traditionally declared as ‘bad’ in most societies.

According to Robert’s personal record, he is eventually recaptured and serves the remainder of his sentence in prison back in Australia where he begins to transcribe his story. CNN hosted a special on Roberts, traveling with him to the real locations of his story, trying to sort through the truth and artistic liberties. It’s easy to be swept away in Roberts’s Odyssey and take away so many life lessons, but the betrayal of fiction amongst fact and its doubt has a way of sometimes deteriorating the message. But maybe that’s what faith is, and life is simply a fiction we write daily.

Shantaram is grossly entertaining in the least, and philosophically enlightening at its best. Like any good message, its quiet moments resonate deep within and its loud events bring forth a rush of emotions. It’s the type of book where you use a highlighter as your bookmark and dog-ear so many pages that its corners double in volume.

Dress Sketch

I’ll just come out and say it. One of the most exciting things about a wedding is the dress. It’s a time for total fantasy- something that only has to last one magical night. It’s an excuse to wear something truly classic and romantic, a chance that rarely comes twice.

Of course there’s also the location, the date, food, guest lists, decor, etc, but those are logistics, and I will pretend they don’t exist for now. For now all I see are creamy ivory silks, florence lace, sheer chiffon and pearl details.

Thanks to pinterest, my ‘style’ board inadvertently leant itself well towards bridal gown inspirations. After pulling may favorite photos and details, I started sketching.

I’m not great at the 2D sort of creative endeavors. I prefer to just start draping fabric and see what happens. It helps to keep an open mind in terms of style when you have as limited technical sewing skills as I. For instance, the sleeves I sketched above can be draped horizontal or vertical, and I’ll probably do whichever is easier and looks better with the fabric I chose.

I’m naturally drawn to a vintage, classic extravagance- a retro mix of flowing, layered details and smart lines. Or to name a designer, Jenny Packman. The design must have sleeves and be flowy. I don’t think I could sew something that was tailored close to the body nor would a corseted sort of gown look good on me. I have also found beading to be quite relaxing and meditative, along with adding an easy sort of sophistication to a piece.

Thankfully I have a lot of time to sit and think, drape and cut. I often like to mentally sketch dresses for no reason at all, so this is a lovely excuse to daydream of silhouettes  and reinvented vintage flairs. I’m not a wedding nut by any means, but fashion- well, that’s just art.

Remote Photography

It’s quite magical and mysterious, taking a photograph without having someone behind the camera. When paired with a tripod, you can shoot your own portraits using the camera’s self timer, a cable release, shooting tethered to a computer or other device, or my new favorite and most modern approach- shooting with a wireless remote.

There’s no time to make your newly anointed fiancee partake in photos then post engagement celebrations. We’re both terribly awkward in front of the lens and would be even more so with an actual photographer, so we flew solo, just the two of us and a tripod, my trusty Nikon D90, and my new wireless remote (10$ from Amazon Basics). Oh wait, there was also the ever present Marshall.

I must admit, I was at first skeptical of my wireless remote when it was given to me as a Christmas present, assuming that it would be complicated and not compatible with my camera. However, using it couldn’t have been easier. It works with many DSLRs and only requires you change your shooting mode to ‘remote‘ which you do the same way as when you change your camera to a ‘self timer’ mode. The only slightly meddlesome part that must be creatively resolved is disguising the actual remote in your hand. It’s a small device, but if obscured too much, won’t trigger the shutter. My personal cheat and compromise was to simply crop out my hand.

Despite that, I still feel the wireless remote is far superior than a self timer being that there’s no running to and fro between the camera and scene. A necessity to the idea of shooting your own portrait is to shoot many, many frames, since you’re basically crossing your fingers and playing a numbers game. With the remote, you can click rapidly and not have to reset the timer. However, I still recommend taking a break to review your photos every 15 frames or so. The good news about all the bad frames is that at least there’s no third party to witness them!

Winter’s Tale

“There were fires blazing on every corner, mortal arguments on each block, robberies in commission, buildings attacked by squads of devilish wreckers, and buildings assembled by constructions workers who rode single cables until they disappeared into the sky. Hardesty found it difficult to get downtown and stay the same. The city wanted fuel for its fires, and it reached out with leaping tongues of gravity and flame to pull people in, size them up, dance with them a little, sell them a suit- and then devour them.”

Winter’s Tale by Mark Helprin is nearly impossible to describe. Indeed, it would take the author himself to give the right words, for to convey his standard of the English language, to show and convince you of his ability to manipulate the senses while turning you on your head- it would lead to self defeat. You would trip and stumble, desperately trying to give words to things that only Helprin can, envious of his powers. For to praise the author, you would want to do so in his own language.

A ‘Winter’s Tale’ is like nothing I’ve read before. Sometimes confusing and always quirky, you forget that you’re reading about a real place. It’s not the dangerous and inventive abstract art pitting itself against a classical precedent. It’s simply taking basic tools and mixing them together in ways that show entirely new colors. Helprin doesn’t just tell you that the sky is blue, that the ocean tasted of salt or that the ice was cold. He tells you that the frozen lake was ‘endless glass like an astronomer’s mirror, the monster’s sealed in tight…’ Even the most inanimate object or thing is alive, from the clouds to the earth beneath the city.

Helprin weaves you through the lives of many characters over the span of a single person’s lifetime, all threads slowly coming together in the way that gives creed to the phrase “It’s a small world.” The setting, indeed the heart of the story, is New York city. It’s about a New York city that breathes, kills, purrs, glows, and most importantly, molds. It can change you constantly, call to you, spit you out and welcome you back with open arms. It’s a city that you can hate and love, love then hate. The story seems to blend reality with fantasy, yet is simply hyper-realism. Helprin describes things and certain truths so eloquently that they appear too fantastical for reality but upon further inspection, is truth defined beyond it’s standard parameters.

With a normal book, to convince a friend to read it you would give away the first 3/4ths of the plot. This story is beyond plot and can be made testament to with a single sentence alone. Below are some of my favorite quotes from the first 1/2 of the book. Hopefully their poignancy isn’t lost when taken out of context. I believe that their universal message can stand alone. A man of the navy and Israeli Air force, Mark Helprin, much like Ernest Hemingway and countless others who are veterans, seem to have a unique grasp on life and language.

The city was like war- battles raged all around, desperate men were on the street in crawling legions. He had heard the baymen tell of war, but they had never said it could be harnessed, its head held down, and made to run in place.

When Peter Lake danced by the night fountain in the dark green square, and was given coins for his dancing, he became a thief.  Though it would take a long time for him to understand the principle, it was that to be paid for one’s joy is to steal.

“What’s money?” asked Peter lake.
“Money is what you give the monkey, or the monkey pee on you.” replied the organ-grinder.

Those who decided such things decided that whoever had seen the map has only imagined it, and the entire matter was forgotten, treated as if it were a dream, and ignored. This, of course, freed it to live forever.

The upper Hudson was as different from New York and its expensive baylands as China was from Italy, and it would have taken Marco Polo to introduce one to the other. If the Hudson were likened to a serpent, then the city was the head, in which were found the senses, expressions, brain and fangs. The upper river was milder, stronger, the muscular neck and smoothly elongated body. There was no rattle to this snake. Albany sometimes tried to rattle, but failed to emit an audible sounds. First of all, the Hudson landscape was a landscape of love. To reach it by sea, one had to have a series of  glorious weddings, crossing the sparkling bands that were the high bridges. The one sailed into tranquil, capacious, womanly bays, the banks of which were spread as wide and trusting as any pair of legs that ever were. Thus began an infinity of  pleasant convolutions.

“Despite their incapacities, these touching, persistent, third-rate-seventh-rate- theatrical people strove to excel. They thought they were artists: they said so on their tax forms and in bus stations in northeastern Delaware, and they almost had it right, for they were not artists, but art. They were in themselves like sad songs, or revealing portraits.”


Circa 1890s, In Photoshop

Heavy handed? Yes. Vintage photograph from way back when? No. I shot this photo yesterday, using a Digital SLR (Nikon D90 with 50mm 1.8 prime lens), a self-timer and late afternoon light softly diffused through linen curtains.

My original intention was to shoot some head-shots for work purposes while I had the apartment to myself. I am absolutely hopeless in front of the lens, further affirming my need to be behind the lens. It was an awkward 15 minute session, ushering my cat out of his beloved chair, racing against the light, focusing without a placeholder, and staring at a blinking timer light, grimacing as the shutter ‘clicked.’ After some desperate and disappointing shots, I decided to just- bah- do whatever and ended up with a shot that felt strangely ‘old.’ To see the photo fully realized, I decided to apply a heavy editing hand. I’m not a huge fan of over stylized looks, it seems like a betrayal to the original photograph, but, c’est la vie.  As long as each lie has a purpose, it can add up to a truth of sorts.

To achieve the photo above, I processed it in both Lightroom and Photoshop, but Lightroom wasn’t necessary, just easier for some things. Basically, I desaturated the photo, lightened the edges, evened out the shadows in the face, applied a weak yellow toned photo filter, and added another photo (layer) of a lace detail. For the ‘lace’ layer, I pulled the opacity down to 17 or so and erased certain areas using a weak brush. None of this is particularly difficult or masterful- I probably utilized .01% of photoshop to achieve this, so don’t let it sound intimidating.  If you want this look on the go, I’m sure there are Lightroom presets and Photoshop actions that achieve the same end.

Some other Photoshop ‘go to’s’ I like to use for portraits: Using a curves layer to ‘paint with light; using the clone stamp with a large brush and opacity around 12% to even and soften skin; and using ‘levels’ to enhance the dark tones.

“Photo credits”: Max Studio Black dress from TJMaxx ($15), Rosette headband from H&M ($4), and Clip earrings courtesy of my wonderful older sister.

Family Flavors

I don’t know how chefs put together cook books with hundreds of recipes. Just putting forty or so together took me months, between the layouts, cooking, and photographing. And of course, as soon as I went to print I found a few more typos. Oh well.

Blurb, the online custom printer I used, is a wonderful service that allows you to digitally preview the book and even place orders at print cost. So feel free to flip through the book or even purchase one (if you dare!).

Catz Christmas

It’s never too early to start thinking about one’s cats on a Christmas card. I had no idea it would be so hard to get Marshall and Lilly to pose together. After 10 mins of Marshall trying to flop himself over every time I stood him up, or Lilly refusing to put her butt down, I quickly gave up and shot (perhaps ‘photographed’ is a better word) them individually, putting my faith in photoshop. Hopefully the joke makes sense/ you can read the text on the cover. Suggestions welcomed!

Food Photos

I’m still many pages, words and hours away from completing a family cookbook, but I’ve been distracting myself with cover ideas in the meantime.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I was happy with the originally intended cover photo, (above right) but then found some gorgeous pears at the grocery store- 3 unique varieties, fully developed with brown mottling and blush toned flares. I couldn’t resist a little photo shoot while my veggie fritters were frying up for dinner.

So far the cookbook has (to name a few) fudge, chocolate italian cookies, and cranberry buckle for dessert; beef stew, spinach quiche, risotto and crab cakes for dinner; Arugula/parmesan salad, chicken salad, and orzo salad for lunch; hummus, latkes, zucchini fritters, pinwheels, butternut soup, and coleslaw for sides- oops, I think I just gained a few more pounds…

Recipes aside, the question for now is only: Which cover photo is better?

Apples to Pumpkins

It was a beautiful fall day for a visit to my grandmother’s and apple picking at Sholan Farms in Leominster, MA (home to Johnny Appleseed, how apropo). It was my first time ever picking apples and I was as giddy as the 3 feet tall munchkins that were running around everywhere, (think kids- not umpalumpas). From giant green Mutsu apples to your traditional McIntosh, the orchard was bursting with colors- and flavors- as my grandmother was keen to explore as she taste tested in every row.

Apple picking was made all the more interesting by my grandmother’s usual antics: “Do you like my two apples?” she asked, holding the apples in the most appropriate location. She later upgraded to two pumpkins. With them nestled against her chest, she smiled at her friend who was volunteering at the farm. Her friend returned the gesture with a playful slap to the arm, ‘Marie, don’t you get fresh now!”